The one thing that people keep telling me is to “not get stressed” & “stay calm” … and all I can think when people are telling me these things is how am I supposed to NOT be stressed when everything I do is for one person who doesn’t seem to even have the ability to appreciate it. How do I stay calm when a simple question turns into my fiance throwing my dresser on the floor & throwing a glass of water at the wall. It seems impossible. My fiance was once a very loving, funny, and easy going person. He was truly my best friend. We could talk for hours, and I could depend on him for any / every thing. It seems almost surreal when I think of how much our lives have both changed. It seems like God was sending me a sign telling me to never get comfortable because I never know when everything can be completely turned upside down. His accident happened on Black Friday of last year, and although he has come such a long way and has made a massive amount of recovery I still feel like he is so far from the person he was before. I have no one to talk to anymore. My best friend is gone. The hardest part is only 8 months into his recovery, my fiance truly believes he has healed completely. Trying to explain to a 22 year old why he can’t drive anymore or why he can’t drink or go to the casinos with his friends has put the biggest strain on our relationship. Since he has been living with me from the time he left Atlanta (where he was doing his inpatient treatment) I have had to become the bad guy every step of the way. Granted, I am only 20 years old. Juggling working full time, going to school full time, and being a caretaker was quite difficult. Some nights I would come home from work, lock myself in the bathroom, and cry my eyes out in the shower. I had no way or time to take care of myself. That was my biggest mistake. After I found out I was pregnant I knew I had to make a change. That is when I made the decision to pack up everything and move my fiancé and I 10 hours away to North Carolina where I would have the support of my family for not only myself but for him. So far we have been in North Carolina for 2 weeks, and I have seen some improvement now that he is around more people (being social) and getting more exercise. The only thing which is still causing some issues is his inability to control his temper & mood fluctuations. My hopes are to get him into Cognitive Therapy to help. Now that he is getting more independent, I can finally start to take care of myself and unborn daughter.
Gotta Keep Moving Forward….
freethyheart 
Do not try to hide your stress, and do make sure that you have some time for yourself. You are still the same person you were before this injury happened. Do not ever believe that he does not appreciate what you do for him. He just may not be able to show it yet. I hope it comes soon for you that he says thank you and he begins to feel better. Keep your chin up and keep driving forward. You can do it.
Thank you so much for your kind words! They are greatly appreciated.
you are very welcome